dont assume I really cared (because I did)

basically: you werent there when i called you kicking screaming begging pleading (you gucci little piggy) so for once in my life I said No and Sure I'd Love Something Casual casual like skinning you whole and wrapping myself in you (would they believe me? can i pull you off? i've been 19 different women so far; why cant i be a man too?) No. I want you - the you smiling in that picture on my wall if he ever existed Yes You Did Tell Me From the Start & over and over again But do you remember a shy 18 year old girl smiling across the room while talking to Maragaret? that was me and this is me now smiling through the tears as I remember approximately 17 incidents over 16 and a half months. How long has it been? I remember February 15th, and trying to call into a song (I'm sorry about the phone calls. And needing you. Some decisions you don't make.) But you made the 14th so much more than it was So I hereby absolve all responsibility and let you go free (but not too free - casual sex? you're beautiful..) 13 carnations and 12 cinnamon hearts in a heart-shaped box I'd love to crawl inside and delude myself back a year, when my bed was on the north-eastern wall I typed essays on a typewriter while smoking my first few forbidden cigarettes and you came over, all lips and arms Written April 2nd, 2002 © on Apr 01 2002 03:25 PM PST   0 • 1