Never Humiliate

You entered my dreams. Although I’ve tried to give them up. You never are quite as you seem. At times I feel as if I will erupt. I keep trying to pretend I don’t care. It’s impossible to make believe you aren’t there. You make me feel different every time. I can’t tell if this is some sign. Should I tell you how I really feel? Even though I know you can’t feel the same. Will you even think I’m for real? I know that I’m way too lame. Cuz you are so smart. And have such a wonderful heart. You are generous to all others. Treat everyone as if they are your brothers. I wonder if that is how you feel about me. Do you think of me as just a friend. Or past my mask can you see. And trying to pretend. Maybe you don’t want it to be true. Hoping that I truly don’t like you. Or maybe you just don’t realize That I’m truly in disguise. I guess I’ll never know. Because I will never say how I feel inside. If you say “no” Then I’ll have no one to confide. Cuz I trust you so much. My heart you have touched. Although I wish we could have a relationship. I could never jeopardize our friendship. So I’ll keep my feelings covered from your view. I’ll try to keep this hidden from your eyes. Hopefully you never knew. I only wish this wont cause my own demise. Written April 12th, 2002 © on Apr 12 2002 08:06 AM PST   10 • 0 • 8