Loss

Loss Ditch you? How could you believe that I would ever do such a thing. You know my feelings for you Even when i try to hide them, You know i would go to the ends of the earth Just for a kiss from you. Yet you believe that I would ditch you. I know you. I know your pains; your lack of trust in people. I would never, and could never, purposefully do anything that would bring you pain. Ditch you? Never you.  But I have ditched friends for you. To go out and dance with you. Instead I had to put my feelings aside and watch you fall in love. And you will never know the time I’ve spent trying to forget that night.  but it won’t go away. Time spent telling myself that i don’t have feelings for you anymore.  that i can be just friends with you. All lies in my head to keep from imploding. Ditch you? You really believe that. I cannot say anything except I’m sorry. Sorry you didn’t hear me knock. Sorry your phone didn’t ring. Sorry I thought you ditched me and found sleep more important. I finally grasped the reality that I could never be your superman.  No matter what I do. So I resigned to be a friend. But now the trust allowing that is gone, so i sit here with only memories and a picture of our last day as friends.Just a note. The capitalization, and lack of, are done on purpose to add an effect. Written January 19th, 2002 © on Jan 19 2002 04:56 PM PST   0 • 1