'Can you notice?'

Aching by the evenings wake, i stare into the dawn. Dazed at haste met by the day, As i stretch and find a yawn. It seems so scary now, That it’s 23, since i was born, The days skip by unnoticed, By each i feel worn. It comes in many colours, Various in form. Stretching out my sanity, It’s growing more and more. Can’t you notice? The dark around my eye? The lines upon my furrowed brow, The tears i never cry? Can’t you tell? By the days i sit so still? Staring into nowhere, Waiting to be killed! Daring in the mornings stare, i wake in sunshine torn, Ripped by thick and raging clouds, It’s time i move along. To find a place that’s brighter, Where the lights are always on. Like living on the Vegas strip, In fake happiness so strong. At least that might be something, Don’t tell me that it’s wrong, i need to feel beauty, i’ve wanted it so long! Can’t you notice? The stain across my soul? The scars upon my bended back, The every crease and fold? Can’t you tell? By the way i look so still? Wishing i was somewhere, Waiting to be killed! Glaring at the daylight rare, i sit amongst the green. Burning fading colours, Just dying to be seen! Wanting to be noticed, Hoping just to be! More than just the simple, Man that i have been! Failing to acknowledge, The gold i’ve come to keep, Instead i give it all away, So alone again i’ll weep. Can’t you notice? The tears inside my heart? The insecurities i hold so dear, The mind that falls apart? Can’t you tell? By the fact that i am still, Simply standing stupid, Waiting to be killed! Dipping as the moonlight slips, It’s rare to bask so sweet, Nobody can notice, That beneath i am still weak. Alone against the nightfall, Emotions grow so steep, So hard to stop the tears, That inside i hold so deep. Torrent of reminders, Turn to stop me sleep... Perhaps these evil demons, i will forever keep! Can’t you notice? The darkness all around me? The Separations of my soul, The hatred that i reap. Can’t you tell? By the fact that i am still, Nothing standing lonely, Waiting to be killed! Written February 22nd, 2002 © on Feb 22 2002 01:16 AM PST, harry luck    0 • 10