'Concern myself!'

Silently i concern myself with troubles i am captured by. Wondering, always wondering... why?! WHY ME!? ... what did i do, to deserve these evils that with blood you did tattoo; on my soul! Respitory functions weak. Am fading, least it seems so. Heavy breath falls loudly, As i realise even i don't know! That something could be changing, Inside me; evil spread. But, then... it could be nothing, Than an evil in my head! Silently, i walk. Quietly, i stalk. Hoping that you will not run away. Whispering you notice. Turn around, i wish... That the suffering will disappear today! Your heart is simply pure, Mine is black and burnt. i love, nothing less, But it seems lessons must be learnt. i'm not the one you need, i fail with each day. And maybe i'm infected, With pain another way! Please, i beg you only this, Don't let me be the one, To ruin all the life you have, As i slowly come undone. i beg you not to let me, Be the reason you fall down. Walk away when ready, And never turn around. Don't go?! Yet... they say, If you love something enough, you will it go. i do not know. What is it i can't say, Who is it that i'm pushing away?! Perhaps it's true i need you... please stay! Silently i concern myself... again. Written April 11th, 2002 © on Apr 11 2002 12:54 AM PST, harry luck    18 • 0 • 10