'In the company of darkness.'

In the company of darkness.  I sit alone. Thinking of a sunrise... to brighten hidden hopes. Speak i now of honesty; Alone, i'm not, i know... With someone sat in front of me, I'm still alone... With a crowd of people in my home, I'm on my own. Sensuous fingers upon my chest, Touching skin so cold, Brittle bones, heart laid to rest, My conscience has been sold. Stand, Sit, Lye... or die? It doesn't matter...  well... not to i. Crave my simple company, or feel queasy at the thought? It doesn't bother me you know.  Not now. Asking pleasure of me, in some sexual carnival... But, not tonight, I'm all alone, With a single woman, in my home... I'm on my own. Understand or hate me, it cannot matter now, I've chains around my failed heart, Hold me down, destroy my smile... TEAR. ME. APART! My soul has lost all reason, to sit inside of me, It's gone, it's left, It's found release... I think it's for the best. I cannot falter anymore, i've walked the floor, i've closed the door. I think it's best. Heart laid to rest... I'm all alone, My soul no longer in my home. I'm on my own. In the company of darkness, i speak now of the truth; I'm a simple man, somewhat aloof... Don't hold me back, i'm happy now, Get out my bed, and out my house. In the company of bastards, who hold my only light, I'm a simple man, this isn't right... Take me now, don't keep the dead, You cut me down... i bled. I'm happy when i'm lonely, i know what empty means, So leave me be, go home tonight... instead, i'll keep you for my dreams. Well... When i sleep. If i ever do...... I'll keep the company of my darkness, To replace you. But i'll be thinking... Like i always do, In the company of darkness, Wanting, craving, needing you. Written January 18th, 2002 © on Jan 18 2002 06:33 AM PST, harry luck    0 • 10