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An ancient rusty axe, stuck into this Tree-Trunk with only a moment's Strength to expel.... Battered and Worn-down with stains of sap and green vegitaion upon its entire wooden handle.... Seeing the degenerate blade, with splashed rust and countless scores of scratches embedded into its usage of a whole Generation's Worth, within My mind's eye over and over again, sends tidal waves of massive NightMares in thru My Livelihood's Pitch-Blackened Dread.... Then, within a split second of not actually knowing any better but wanted to hastily please an angry adult, as I FearLessly swung that old tattered axe I ForceFully put its blade deep into the Dead Silence of that trunk..... My Grand-Mama sounded off with such a BlooD-Curtling scream towards me that jolted My AwareNess to the dirrection of the other little ones that were helping me play at chopping wood just like Grand-Papa.... I threw My head around and closed my attention in on My Baby Sis who had her Strained Mouth wide open, as to be screaming out in Pain, but, there wasn't a sound, just that look of a toddler's PainFelt agony thru eyes of such grim shock.... As she screamed in Major silent tones, that loudly shook our minds, and violently shuttered within our bodies from the feet, up the spine, to an aweful feeling of tall goose bumps that were standing all hair on end, she seemed to slowly fall backwards with a hand straight up in the air.... I quickly peered around that scene to acess exactly what I had made happen that deserved such a brought About horrifying calamity.... I was so confused to see BlooD from My Baby Sis' two indexed fingers Squirting in every posible direction, with half of those fingers, once missing, now located laying on that stump besides the damned ole rusty axe blade.... I didn't know what was happening with My Sis then, or, the feelings that were swarming my mind and drowning My Spirit then. But, I waved good-bye to My Grand-Mama as I saw her holding those chopped off fingers to the, now, stubb of My Sis' hand as they both were on their way down that LONG dirt DriveWay in the middle of a Huge Vast WilderNess.... I, and the rest of my Young Kin, played around that meat cattle ranch for so Long that day. SomeHow we all ended up by this gigantic, fallen, dead tree that spread out its bare limbs upon the meadow within inches of a thick, green forest.... Becuzz of what took place, with terrible astonishment from my cuzzins, I was quickly put on trial, and was frozen stiff, for the murder of My innocent Baby Sis' BlooDieD Fingers.... EveryOne of My cuzzins shook their fingers at me and loudly declared that I was clearly guilty of Murder in the 1st. And then came the sentencing of a Monsturous Brutality that would definitely need a comstumized coffin just for Me.... There I was, Frightened Stiffly, and shaking violently as I stood before them all to hear what I was Purely deserving of. Then, they cruelly hit me with that Hard blow of truthful judgment. The oldest cuzzin walked right infront of me and sternly looked into My eyes saying, ...."You are here-by sentenced to Death, by Hanging by Your neck till You are completely dead."... Dangling from this old dead tree, as its sole, frigidly-LifeLess Ornament, was just the Sight that My imagination drowned me in for "for ALL but 5 yrs. of My Entire LifeTime".... But, the moving picture of such a Crude scene that portrayed the reality of My Sis falling back, mouth gaping wide open, hand straight up with two fingers replaced by BlooDieD Gore, is "THE" Horror for a 5 yr. old ...{Me}, to keep within her mind's memory banks for an entire LifeTime. To torture her every Thought, Feeling, AwareNess, and each emotion known to a Normal ManKind.... Mary-EllenMatthews/CopyRight2002 Be back soon for Part II Written March 11th, 2002 © on Mar 11 2002 10:17 AM PST   0 • 1