the future

they always tell you 'these are the best years of your life' and,'you should enjoy it while you can' I am beginning to think they're wrong or if they are right, my life is really going to suck. I try to enjoy it but something always gets in my way like men or grades or some stupid person wanders in to my stupid life and then there it all goes right down the tubes. and I want to be older I want to be out of school but they tell me 'it's really not that great' I can't imagine it being worse then this. high schools sucks there is no nice way to put it and yes you have to work for a living and support yourself but at least you don't always have this annoying person on your ass all the time they are always there and it's great to know that they care and at times I love them but I just wish they would lay off a bit. and it's not like I have just 2 parents oh no I have step parents, and grandparents and uncles & aunts. and olders siblings that won't leave me alone, they won't let me live my life, they want to live it for me and sometimes I want to give in and just say here go for it, have a ball but then I realize they would only make it worse then I have all these friends that I never know if they will turn against me. then I have all these guy friends the problem, they are friends and they all think of me like a friend and thats cool but you'd think at least one of them would think of me that way. then I have to worry about these grades And take all these tests. to see just how stupid I really am all this to prepare me for the day when I can break free from this hell hole. all the pressure sometimes I want to just give up and fail all my classes piss off my parents all my friends and just go and live like a hermit, alone then yet again, some stupid person makes me look forward to the future. Written September 26th, 2001 © on Sep 26 2001 12:59 PM PST   0 • 10