who was it

"poker faced neglectthrowin aceswith expediencyflashes ofred and blackdizzin the mindwith wine happinessspinnin like the merry go roundjoy sorrow angerall in one drinkmixed to imperfectionno regret no ..."

"to followsecret thoughtsinto thewhite rabbit holered pill orblu pilllead me with your backlike a marionettesuspended onshackle bar stringscrucified martyrsmade out ofothers inconsiderationlack of lust..."

"baby's unrecognitionrazor bladepaper cutto the heartgone too longvoice remembered thoughon this partof this pageexperience andloss of it allfirst steppeddirty diapersbaby ponderedtimes of smilesa sole..."

"on the keys with broken ligaments leavin me out of the dinner room conversation that was irrelevant on paper mached tables and origami chairs gettin angry at my multi lingual body movements uncontroll..."

"one more thought to edit with highlighter ambitions claspin hands around sins and tears could've killed with metal monsters and sleepy eyed sadness to make me wicked bar'd cage home where i would've ..."

"waitin in private lap danced melodies for public transport pick up my day deja vu'd and on repeat, saw ghosts and time fuckin on the walls. colleen's face, as i board, later years, and that same ol' n..."