Forgiveness

Hatred and hurt Stomach tied in a knot Why try to forgive When it can't be forgot? The cold angry shackles To bind my bare feet Tear drops are bitter But revenge tastes sweet Stone walls are built When safety is needed Advice may be given But words aren't heeded Perhaps self deception Will keep me restrained But does that then mean That my heart can't be pained? Resentment seems perfect My eyes will not cry But to harbor such feelings Is it not all a lie? My soul screams in anguish It wants to be heard But my mind keeps it quite And calls it absurd If I only can channel My thoughts on the spite It may make it easier To sleep well at night "I hate him, I hate her" Oh why must this be? Those aren't my emotions They are just what you see Within me there bleeds A wound three times sea deep And my ill will a shield For battered spirits to keep But the burden is heavy I can't hold the weight I feel my bones shatter Beneath all my hate I have to let go Open flood gates reveal The desperate intensity Of the sadness I feel Sadness it is Was and ever shall be Not rage and not anger Nor animosity So I'll cry for the friends Who have damaged me so So I'll cry for the friends Who just didn't know So I'll cry for the loves Who have sought to abuse So I'll cry for the loves Who thought I was to use And the tears will release me The walls broken down And instead of clenched fists I will just have a frown But to just feel that pain And acknowledge those sorrows Will open the doors For more peaceful tomorrows And I'll try to know better For next time around The forgiveness will come From the love that I've found. Written October 21st, 2001 © on Oct 21 2001 07:36 AM PST   0 • 1