I will...

I know all you see Is anger in my eyes As I pass you by. If you only knew the whole thing, If only you knew how I really feel. I'm not angry with you. I tried to show you before, It just never seemed to come out right. I have my reasons for this Others just don't see. I wish I could make them understand, But my words do no justice. So maybe we can finish this story, Have it it end like it was supposed to... Make it all alright again. Time just keeps turning these blank pages And I've lost my own way behind it. I don't love you anymore, I suppose my eyes have told you that. But I still care for, In ways I don't even understand. I'm on my own path now, a different path... I just wish you could be here To see it with me, as a friend. I never hated you, And to tell the truth I have failed at trying. I'm tired of all the distance When you walk your way, And I walk mine. It just means I get farther away from you, And closer to losing a great friend. I truely miss your company, And the happiness it brought. I just loved to catch you smile, When you thought no one was around. I miss your sweet voice, When we talked on nights like these About subjects that made us seem smart, If even just for a fleeting moment. I miss the fun things we did together, While we were still friends.... I miss that about you. I saw you look back at me, One last time, and you smiled, Before you turned back and started on your way. You touched my heart that day, And that is something I never had a chance to tell you. But I could only watch you walk away... Away from all we built together. I just didn't know what I could say, To make you change your mind. Now I wish I could walk up to you, Push you jokingly and say "hey" I wish I could pick up the phone, And chat idly about the Shark's game last night. But I have no control over what's been done. It's all beyond repair, beyond my reach. So until we cross this forbidden bridge, I will just walk by, with my head down And you will just drive by, looking through me. I will just whisper "I'm sorry" into the wind And hope you hear it someday. I will just...wait.I am going to give half credit to ...flame... I wrote this, and he revised it, and then I revised that, but I still kept some of his parts. So I give my best humble bow to his amazing poetic skill. I still care for him as a friend, but I don't know that he'll ever know that. I hope so. Written April 19th, 2002 © on Apr 18 2002 04:21 PM PST    0 • 1