Lie

Liar Shut it out-out of my head what I fool I am with no pride remaining. Sinner! Who calls out for my blood when I have nothing left containing? Who sucks out my life seeking my end. I must be mad truly to want this again. Who allows for my descent into love’s Hell. And I shan’t return either. It's just as well! But not without you my true love denied. Can I traverse to hell without you by my side? This is my sin love and it lies with you- Thus! My body must die while my psyche falls through. So I wish to be empty inside evermore. Ha! So now I don’t care if they call me a whore. Flitting to this and that one back again What is the count one? two? three? four? five? ten? Now see my hands look how they shake while I'm lying. Why? Because only fools feel so aren't I one for trying. Oh my head is so fogged that I cannot see ration. It's because you have driven me mad with your passion. How you say my name with such a reverent design. But I'm lying again for it’s just in my mind! A facade to help me survive this attack. From someone who doesn't love me back! Take it all! Oh yes! I do indeed! See what a masochist I am to have this need! Arghh! I don't want it damn me! I'm only living in a fantasy! A dream not real but an illusion. A sick and grotesque mental delusion. Built up from the ground by my torrent desires. Which shatter my mind and my thoughts with their fires. So it isn't real? Well then neither am I. If my reality is based on this lie. Written December 21st, 2001 © on Dec 20 2001 04:38 PM PST   0 • 1