Lost in thought, yet cannot think
If only they could see Just how it feels to be me Wake in the morning Not ready for the day Off to collage for more pain Waiting for the nasty things you say Always in a dreamland Lost in thought, yet cannot think Watching you, im jealous Knowing when you speak, at least your words link Sit alone all day Feeling no sence of hope Lost in the shit in my head But I know I have a noosed rope Waiting to take me away At last I go home But I don’t want to be there either Sit in my dark room, but I see a light In the corner, by the wall, a glint I promised myself not today, but now its night I didn’t say not at night Go to the corner pick up the object Knowing if it had the choice It would take my life Roll up the sleeves to be greeted by tormented skin I feel so lucky to have made friends with knife If only you understood How good it feels It takes away all that I fear Replaces all the fear, hurt and pain With blood, cuts and one single tear I wish I could talk to you Like I used to It was so much easier then But now I’m bottling it all up again I love you so much, I dont want to hurt you Written March 5th, 2002 © on Mar 05 2002 02:53 AM PST 0 • 1
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"If only they could see..."