Dark Clouds
By Enru
All I feel is helplessness,As I sit back and watch my life go by,Undesired, why would I want this life of mine?Looking from a distance, watching with persistence,Hoping it'll all change, by design, rearrange,Make better the pain, to make me sane,Wish I could control my brain,Screaming with rage, from inside of my cage,I can see my life slowly fall to dust,But I have no power to stop the rust,From eating away at my soul,I've got to get back in control,I can't stand the feelings of darkness,Washing over me, inside of my consciousness,The pain is reflected out through my eyes,Trying to hide it by telling myself lies,But nothing can keep the truth buried away,Inside of my thoughts it always will stay,Dark laughter fills my head,Telling me that I should be dead,Whispering thoughts of evil and hate,Nothing can help me, its all come too late,What can I do to kill this feeling?My thoughts have left me, my mind is reeling,My life it is slowly stealing, like an orange it is peeling,Away at the goodness that is left in my soul,The hate is starting to take its toll,My heart is blackening with evil smoke,My lungs are gasping, I'm going to choke,The pain is consuming all of my being,The end of my life I will soon be forseeing. Written September 15th, 2001 © on Oct 23 2001 01:35 PM PST 0 • 1
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"All I feel is helplessness,As I sit back and watch my life go by,Undesired, why would I want this life of mine?Looking from a distance, watching with persistence,Hoping it'll all change, by design, rearrange,Make better the pain, to make me sane,Wish I could control my brain,Screaming with rage, from inside of my cage,I can see my life slowly fall to dust,But I have no power to stop the rust,From eating away at my soul,I've got to get back in control,I can't stand the feelings of darkness,Washing over me, inside of my consciousness,The pain is reflected out through my eyes,Trying to hide it by telling myself lies,But nothing can keep the truth buried away,Inside of my thoughts it always will stay,Dark laughter fills my head,Telling me that I should be dead,Whispering thoughts of evil and hate,Nothing can help me, its all come too late,What can I do to kill this feeling?My thoughts have left me, my mind is reeling,My life it is slowly stealing, like an orange it is peeling,Away at the goodness that is left in my soul,The hate is starting to take its toll,My heart is blackening with evil smoke,My lungs are gasping, I'm going to choke,The pain is consuming all of my being,The end of my life I will soon be forseeing...."