Heart's Choice.

Trapped I am, by my way of being. Old paths intersect with new yet choices remain unanswerable> Will I lose you now, forever? Had I already? One storm ridden night. When your heart, you offered me, I laid bare with truth and mistrust. Why do I hold back? I know how I feel inside. Voices clamor for release. Feelings run rampart and a different truth than I show you shines as brightly as the fullest moon. Two minds I have yet one heart I love. Have loved for the longest time and I know not the answer to my struggle yet I sit and fight for my own destruction. I am not as strong as I thought. nor as strong as you. How I wished I had opened me to you as you have done for so long. I know that it is my choices that stops you but you couldn't have known; you saw only, my rejection, the sad sound of voice, the fear that chains me. Love is supposed to be expressed, loudly and magnificently. Shared and joined in bliss. I didn't. For my burden is to love only one and I fell for that one, long ago. This mess I have created, cheats me of you. My strength, lies dormant. Waiting, for a miracle, that wont come unless you're here. I am so deeply moved by you, you who loves unconditionally. I am so selfish to ask so much and give of my self, so little. I am ashamed to have hurt you and I can not change my confusion; until I can. I will not hold you any more. Your dream deserves the very best You are so beautiful, in heart and soul, you give of your self so wondrously, so gentle you are and passionate. I can only dream and wish deeply that you will find your Heart's choice. Goodbye dream lover. It is I, who loves You... Forever. Written December 1st, 2001 © on Dec 01 2001 01:50 AM PST   18 • 0 • 1