Crash

Everything seems to crash into me at once, Nothing is right, I'm a crazed wreck, Pissed at the world, But in love at the same time, It all hurts too bad, Part of me wants to die, Part of me wants homocide, There's not a way to tell who I'll loose next, The walls of my life crash down as I speak, I always forget what pain feels like, But pain is the only reality in life, Still, so niave and innocent, I get so frusterated with myself, If I can't be beautiful, I shall be talented and smart, But even that's failing me now, I used to be so good at everything I did, But now everything I touch turns to shit, The only emotions are pain and confusion, I don't know why it's so hard on me, I need to go somewhere to get away from it all, But no one will listen, No one can hear me screaming and breaking, Falling from under the weight of all this shit, I stopped mattering years ago, I only exist because I'm too terrified to try anything, I'm only here in body, My mind, replaced by a time bomb, It's getting to close to the detination time, How shall I end? Knife to the heart? Hanging from the closet rod? Splattered about the place? Do I even contain the courage? I think, I just might.This is not a recent poem. I found it while cleaning out some old boxes in my garage.I read it, and found it to be quite worthy of submission. Could you all be so kind as to let me know if I was correct in this? Written March 28th, 2002 © on Mar 28 2002 07:32 AM PST   0 • 1