Death By Heartache

You’re always there no matter how hard I try to get rid of you. I tried being friends with you, but that only brought me misery. You stabbed me in the back more times then I care to count. You hurt me in so many ways, I doubt there are any left. You talked about me behind me back so much for saying you cared. You are always competing with me, and I don’t want to compete with you. You copied everything I did, from what I said, from what I wore, to what I liked. You made me feel so guilty when I was mad at you. You were always there so loud and obnoxious. You could never leave me alone you haunt me. Your life is a lie on big whole lie and you are wallowing in it. You lie you lie you lie, and you cheat. You contradict yourself in every way possible. You are such a hypocrite. I tried hating you. That worked pretty well for a while. But still you were always there. You always interrupted me and took my space. You always wanted the attention on you. You never made me smile, because you really hurt me. You still try to compete with me. You still copy me. You want me dead I know it. You won’t leave me alone until I am dead. You won’t ever leave me alone until I am completely out of the picture. So kill me already, kill me. I’m waiting for you, slow and painful. That’s your specialty isn’t it? You want to see me suffer, and I used to hide it from you so you wouldn’t get any satisfaction from it. But I cracked I knew it was only a matter of time. You make me want to rip my hair out. Stop thinking that everything belongs to you, and the world revolves around you. Even now I want nothing to do with you, or as you say you with me. Then why won’t you go away? Why won’t you leave me alone? Why don’t you fight for yourself instead of having other people do it for you? Why don’t you just leave me alone? God is it so hard? I want to wake up one day and go to school, and you’ll be gone. Go away one of us will sooner or later. And I really don’t want it to be me. Written November 2nd, 2001 © on Nov 01 2001 03:33 PM PST   0 • 1