r u i n m e )(_happy thoughts(>)

Whats in your mind deep     deep       down             so hidden that tragedy is left open   baring your soul                 do you feel i would crawl so s        l  o  w  l  y over it (could I ever understand)   Are you a  f  r  a  i  d that your being will be                               consumed and that little piece of you                         will meld into me                                         blocking your little notions                           your anxiety's                                         will only cause you pain l  i  n  e up to whisper s    ma  ll secrets into my ear (ramble your way out of it)                       and make yourself feel better (blame me) redemtion is felt in a second             your lost hopes and sorrows                         are displayed so primly in  front of me     you feel that after you are saved (Can I change you ?  ? ?)                                             saying to me b  e  a  ut  y is found within and being u g  l y inside               an ironic message (don't you think?)                               i k  n  o  w what you've always wanted                                   and i can feel that i am that (claim your prize)                 but I am not willing to lead you down                                             the trail of s                                                    e                                                     l                                                       f destruction t r  u  ly,               i want you to be stuck in your little                 house, with your little wife and kids                       pay back for showing me something I can n  e  ve  r have (why do I want it?? ??)                           praying that this is truly what i need,               self denial will make me a better person,             this situation makes me weak and I        am feeble,                   I am sad little g  i  r  l who wants all of the toys                           but is never happy. make me h              a      p      p      y.(ruin me) Written March 23rd, 2002 © on Mar 22 2002 03:24 PM PST, melissa upfold   0 • 1