the rules of the world.

==---the beginning-==         p pick it u,     let it f             a               l                   l repetiveness will not kill this notion, it is real       this pain that i feel can not be defined         it lingers inside of my head                   and when it has finally dissolved         i will be free to feel again                                       however lord knows when                   my days on this earth will end       but you must wait with me       until eternity, when i may rest f  eel every movement and breathe i take     succumb to your fears                         i am desperate to be with you           but contrived forms of expression self immulation leaves me weak in my knees                   feeling like i will never f                                             a                                             l     ----realization--==                                        l. nature plays us all girl                      vs.                        b oy it's love and hate, so lets make a date, where we can play by the rules all over again. supress me it's okay i like to feel this way,           just as soon as i lie to myself some more                 pretend i like to serve you margaritas in the sun while you smoke cigars a  n  d                silently murder our children. i will play  by the rules of the game                         because for now my head is gone b    ut i can not gaurantee that the game will not change                 where i'll be the player,                               and you, my pawn. Written April 3rd, 2002 © on Apr 03 2002 02:18 PM PST, melissa upfold   0 • 10