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.c.o.|.d. warmth drained from my very fingertips. hope everlasting chains me to the mortar of the wall. my lonliness has become my only salvation. my pity - weakness. my heart beats fitfully with no reason left to live. all i can feel - all thats left is the .c.o.|.d. my temptation draws me nearer; closer to the flame humid air shallows my lungs the fumes make it hard to breathe i turn away shocked at what i see. my body - ringed in blood still spilling from my wrists back to my past i run feeling the pureness of the .c.o.|.d. that surrounds me Gray sky as far as my eye can see. bleak wind filling my ears with the song of a forlorn past and a future with no hope or love i spread my arms and feel its chill caresses raise my skin. i breath deeply and fall forward over the cliff - the place where i once held my percarious perch. its all gone now i feel only .c.o.|.d. I open my blank eyes and stare at the ground as it rapidly approaches. my heart was content with this and all i want has been fufilled but i feel empty inside as i listlessly plummet to the ground like an inatimate china doll i never hoped it would come to this now the ground nears and an everlasting .c.o.|.d. overtakes me i thought this was what i wanted Written April 17th, 2002 © on Apr 17 2002 04:01 PM PST   10 • 0 • 1