Running My Life
By LoveBug
I guess I didn’t see youOr choose to see youYou are nothingThe spit spat on the groundThe heat absorbs youYou dissipate into the atmosphereAnd yet you run my lifeYour presences burns my skinToys with my mindEats away at my common senseAnd yet you run my lifeWithout knowing how much you hurt me, hate meI hold your truth in my heartIn my mindOn my soulMy freedom restrictedBy your thoughtsMy outlook taintedBy your wordsAnd you run my lifeWith these mystical thoughtsThe dense fog hides your emotionsFor their eyes don’t hold your senseAnd for me to see for minutesThat side that’s hidden thereIt makes my misery worthwhileMy character self satisfiedAnd you tell them all my wrongsTell them what I’ve doneBut I didn’t see it comingBlind sided by your falseFor them to believe adds the fireMakes the bullshit add upClosing my eyes the light glidesAround youKissing your truthThat only I can seeAnd that you denyYou claim its not thereBut I feel and understand your actHear what they don’t seeShow them who you areYour nothingnessYour unconcerned reactionsThe numbness in your eyesThe coldness in your heartYou are their spitSpat on the filth of earthYou dissipate into the surrounding atmosphereYou touch my skin and kissMy faceYou take my consciousnessWith you in your open armsAnd embrace them, you embrace meAnd in your filth and disgustYou run my lifeFrom the backseat of my mindWho asked you to feel it?To poke your finger into the mush of hatredConfused by the light shining downWrapping your eyes around my bodyFeeling me, my movementGrasping my minds illnessPulling my injustice down with youHolding off until I’m downOn my knees and praising youPushing at my closenessGrossly disturbing my awake life my freedomOf hopeAnd respect for myselfThrown to them to ripTo spread to dissectClose me out of your lifeShut the door Shut your eyesThe burning they create the print they leave And day after day you Can see this decomposing soul of mineThat you joyfully destroyedRape meRaise one over my headPush it in my subconsciousRepeat it over and overUntil I bleed in pain and agony for what is to comeThe hurt you’ve created inside meGrowing day by dayUntil it cant retain any longerAnd you’ve given me remembranceAnd you deny it as your faultThe beauty of our arrogance That I hate you forFor now and always.I don't know if this really fits under the 'love' category but that's still how I feel...believe it or not. Written May 1st, 2001 © on Oct 09 2001 02:45 PM PST 18 • 0 • 8
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"I guess I didn’t see youOr choose to see youYou are nothingThe spit spat on the groundThe heat absorbs youYou dissipate into the atmosphereAnd yet you run my lifeYour presences burns my skinToys with my mindEats away at my common senseAnd yet you run my lifeWithout knowing how much you hurt me, hate meI hold your truth in my heartIn my mindOn my soulMy freedom restrictedBy your thoughtsMy outlook taintedBy your wordsAnd you run my lifeWith these mystical thoughtsThe dense fog hides your emotionsFor their eyes don’t hold your senseAnd for me to see for minutesThat side that’s hidden thereIt makes my misery worthwhileMy character self satisfiedAnd you tell them all my wrongsTell them what I’ve doneBut I didn’t see it comingBlind sided by your falseFor them to believe adds the fireMakes the bullshit add upClosing my eyes the light glidesAround youKissing your truthThat only I can seeAnd that you denyYou claim its not thereBut I feel and understand your actHear what they don’t seeShow them who you areYour nothingnessYour unconcerned reactionsThe numbness in your eyesThe coldness in your heartYou are their spitSpat on the filth of earthYou dissipate into the surrounding atmosphereYou touch my skin and kissMy faceYou take my consciousnessWith you in your open armsAnd embrace them, you embrace meAnd in your filth and disgustYou run my lifeFrom the backseat of my mindWho asked you to feel it?To poke your finger into the mush of hatredConfused by the light shining downWrapping your eyes around my bodyFeeling me, my movementGrasping my minds illnessPulling my injustice down with youHolding off until I’m downOn my knees and praising youPushing at my closenessGrossly disturbing my awake life my freedomOf hopeAnd respect for myselfThrown to them to ripTo spread to dissectClose me out of your lifeShut the door Shut your eyesThe burning they create the print they leave And day after day you Can see this decomposing soul of mineThat you joyfully destroyedRape meRaise one over my headPush it in my subconsciousRepeat it over and overUntil I bleed in pain and agony for what is to comeThe hurt you’ve created inside meGrowing day by dayUntil it cant retain any longerAnd you’ve given me remembranceAnd you deny it as your faultThe beauty of our arrogance That I hate you forFor now and always.I don't know if this really fits under the 'love' category but that's still how I feel...believe it or not...."