A Note to My Mother

"i cried last night. out of fear out of pain i woke up with bruises. i played last night. with a toy with a person i woke up in laughter. i lost myself last night. in an ally in my mind i woke up new..."

"i love you. lie, love is just hormones to you. i've never felt this way before. truth, but have you ever felt anything? i want to be with you forever. lie, there is no forever. i'd die if i saw yo..."

"who would've ever thought a polygon could mean so much? long silver hair long silver sword the beauty of the bishonen. if only you were real.. i'd lock you in a cage or perhaps chained to a wall my d..."

"i went to church to day and rejoiced at the sound of babies crying. it seemed fitting almost at the childrens's liturgy Christmas mass. so innocent, their eyes full of tears. if only they knew of thei..."

"i feel it in your palms that power. that warmth. the one that has no words to describe it. i can taste it in your tears not just saline. not just sadness. tastes like strength on its knees. i can se..."

"It's cold inside perhaps my heart has frozen over just like yours maybe all my dreams have burnt out with the flame that was my passion could my reason for living have escaped my being was it that..."