Anomaly

My eyes close in terror every moment I lie, awake for the season, with hollowing eyes, waiting for you, you should apologize, for the ever present longing, lost anguish I shed over you. I take a picture and post your address on the letter in my head, I want you to see the depths I've plumbed, in hopes that you'll come here, take my hand, and allow me to rise above these realities. I believed for a moment, that love was really immortal. It lives on within me, but somehow you've left it behind, like an old skin. You'd rather forget it, and pretend you never associated, with anything of it's kind. Our love is beating my heart to my head, It's now a throbbing particle, I even now notice sometimes. I've wished it would simply be dead, but it only hides, mercifully for a number of moments, till it sees your face in my mind. In it's strife to reach you, it renders me blind. It tears through me with careless grace, and destroys what I once thought was mine. I'm getting used to it's painful expendenture of energy, but don't lend it mine anymore. The poor anomolous particle, isn't aware, it lives on in pointless chore. It doesn't know that it doesn't, matter anymore. Written March 27th, 2002 © on Mar 26 2002 11:55 PM PST, Neurosine    0 • 10