Just Another Lover

Gasping for air, I look into his eyes. Knowing that you were there, You still gave me a suprise. Love is a loaded gun- but we're halfway to it Looking for 'the one', Good chance of getting shot doing it. Pained, I glace over He's just as sweaty as I. Starting to kiss my shoulders, This sends chills to my spine. Stop staring at him, I think in a second's time. Oh, he's perfect-Can't stop looking at him Though he really isn't mine. What's this worth? It will cause me agony. I know I'm not his first, Though he's mine, does he LOVE me? I don't listen to my mind, Go through with it I silently yell This hurts, aloud I sigh. I shouldn't be doing this, myself I tell. He professes his love to me Though I know he doesn't mean it How can this be? You see I thought he'd never pull that shit. So now I'm just another lover On his list of merries-go-round. Does he tel them all he "loves her"? That hammered me into the ground. At fourteen I'm a mother And the father doesn't care Should've really loved one-another Then, the baby might not be there. He'd never have settled down for me Can't say why I thought he would Him? Stay with one woman? Can't ever be Even if he wanted, he never could. I can't sing love songs anymore The way they're meant to be On love, I shut the heaviest door Because of what my son's dad did to me. Child will never know his father. I'd rather he didn't meet him There's no need to even bother Can't ever dream he'd come. At twenty, I'm mother of a six year old I should have listened to my mind; Baby's daddy left me out in the cold The past years have been most unkind.This never happened Written April 6th, 2002 © on Apr 06 2002 10:41 AM PST   0 • 1