Loving you Alone

My heart aches from missing you My hands aches to be held in yours My minds plays over distant memories - Distant memories that we never shared I can't tear myself out of the fantasy The facts seem to slip my mind I never knew you You never loved me Your body lying next to mine, The perfect fit - It was only a dream. It was never my name you called out when you were scared It was never my hand you reached for when you needed help. Maybe you never really existed. The phone never rang because you were never really there to call. How do you shake the dream? Can you make the fantasy disolve? I find myself yearning for something I never had, Loving someone I never knew Holding on to something that didn't exist. Your smile haunts my dreams at night Your picture pulls at my heart. Do you know I'm here? Loveing you each moment? Praying for you each night - Hoping that one day - you might see me you might notice me you might love me... But the mirrored lake of fanatsy has begun to ripple And reality is slowly being revealed beneth the surface I know I need to let go, or be swept away - Swept away into the magic pull of bedlam. The depths of reality are cold and its hard to breathe... Why couldn't you love me?its all a long story. I know it sucks but like i said, its just a way to get it out... Written September 23rd, 2001 © on Sep 23 2001 02:25 PM PST   18 • 0 • 8