First kiss*(not quite a poem)

Have you ever put off a moment you didnt want to come? even if that moment should of been or would of been the best moment in a gurlz life? scared out of my mind of what would happen after school not knowing that maybe nothing at all would of happen but of course i didnt take that chance only went with what i knew so i advoided him and didnt do anything stayed with my friends and put it off all day scared of what? i dunno maybe its the fact i might suck at it, drool on him, or just plain chicken out and screw him over and leave him before he puts a move on me could it be he just likes me enough to share this with me he doesnt know i havnt kissed anyone EVER in my life so far and i was totally scared and never told him anything we were only goin out for like a day and a half and i knew it was comin and i was not ready at all, wasnt sure what to tell him, how to act or what i should do i knew or at least thought i couldnt tell him i wasnt experienced totally with certin things you know so i just said to myself i wasnt ready and dumped him the next day, could this be i was too afraid to kiss him or i wasnt ready or i just didnt like him, yah maybe that was it i didnt like him. well, i just think i wasnt ready and i think i was too afraid to tell him that and i well just gave up and am goin to try to get to know him first that might help me with my fear or my so called yet to come FIRST KISS.............weird how it came out i dunno what happened but yah and a few things came up today i did dump him but not over my fear of kissin him that was included but i didnt like him so i was leading him on so i just decided to end it before it gt to serious...you know?? Written April 18th, 2002 © on Apr 18 2002 12:05 PM PST   18 • 0 • 10