Insanity Knocks...

Insanity Knocks... Who’s there… thoughts of you… & him… & her… & me… &…. I feel lost sometimes… your essence tearing a piece of me away… from me.… You walk by & I feel you… sometimes know what you are thinking or feeling & I am scared… Do I react to this silent conversation we share that you know not of… because sometimes you make me mad & don’t even know it… selfish… am I… or are you… selfish…? I scream so loud in my mind that my eyes want to burst the vibrations with tears… of lament… I simply asked for clarity & to know… not insanity uncontrolled by you… & him… & her… & me… &… How do I stop the headaches when they walk by… I feel saturated by anxious energy… consumed by your thoughts… Do I speak to you about the anger & sadness that compels me to walk away… when I ask & you say not today… what do I do? Your Aura doesn’t lie… the subconscious gasps from tormented dillusions… embrace me… and I tense… & shudder… denying that this is a Moment… but knowing with all the Cosmos that it is real… do I shut my Eye… or tear down the fleshy walls? S.S.Snapp 5/8/01 Author's Note: I feel & see things sometimes not knowing how to control it completely yet... sometimes I just need to ask if it is real... or wait & see... waiting is hard because not everyone will share themselves... not everyone is honest... I feel others anxiety & pain & then I hurt... on this day it was so strong... thatif I didn't get it out I felt like I would explode...I hope you enjoy the ramblings of my mind... Written May 8th, 2001 © on Nov 07 2001 04:48 AM PST   0 • 1