Shell-Shocked
By safewrite
You can’t do a good job When you are constantly panicked Always looking over your shoulder For the next shoe to drop. Shoes were dropping The whole time you grew up Paranoid defenses were a necessity then But they get in your way now And old habits die hard. Constantly worried Hyper-listening "Did I do something wrong? Will I be yelled at?" Probably not, But that’s what you’re used to. The hell of it is That you feel more at home In abusive companies Than in ones that treat you well. The more unpleasant the circumstances The better your coping skills work . You can set yourself up, Thinking you heard what you didn’t hear Worried that the rug will be Pulled out from under you (But it always has been before). Emotional paraplegic - You haven’t a leg to stand on. Written December 28th, 2001 © on Dec 27 2001 06:19 PM PST 0 • 1
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"You can’t do a good job..."