Somewhere in my mind

My lyrical mind is jumbled, I do not want to lose you, but i already have. I wish these feelings would lead me somewhere, but they just leave me here, ...................in the floor, writing about my jumbled mind. I know I love you, I wish you will love me. You know I want the love back, ...................that we shared. I still love you, I can't stop thinking about that, My jumbled mind just won't let me. I wish I could hold you, ....................One more time. I don't even feel like I am alive, At time I wish I wasn't, but thinking of you won't let me die. I wish you would reconize me in a crowd, Because I just love you. I don't know what I am feeling, ...Love...Pain...Fear...Anger? I really think it is all four. My jumbled mind feels fear, .....from you. My cut heart feels love, .....for you. My dazed mind will not let me think, .....of you. My worried heart will not let me, .....let go of you. I love the way you looked at me, your eyes showed pure love. I wish your eyes would even glance my way. My love can't be changed by time, I will love you until the day i die. My eyes look in your direction, they see my lost love, but my love is not lost, it is you I have lost. Normal poets call my love for you inspiring, I just call it my passion for you. It is my love that inspires my writing. I wish I could inspire your writings, but I guess that will never happen, expecially after what happend. I thought you loved me? You made me think, .....What is Love? Does anyone know what it is? I just know what it feels like. I wish I could hold you, .......One more time, So my jumbled mind will go to rest. Schitzo. Written December 15th, 2001 © on Dec 15 2001 12:34 PM PST   0 • 12