When I Feel This Way

When I feel this way, I can just hit the floor. I do not know what I am feeling, Because I am so confused. I wish I knew what my heart wanted, But it is for the best that I don’t. When I feel this way, I do not know what I want. I know I want my love back, But am sure that you are my love? You both care for me, But which one more? When I see you around, I know that you love me. When I see you alone, I need to comfort you.  When I feel this way, I know that I love you. Everything gets to me, It just piles up inside me. Everyone that tries to reassure me, They just end up hurting me even more. If I could find some closure, My mind will relax. When I feel this way, No one knows that I am dejected. I don’t really know what is wrong with me, Except for I don’t have you anymore. If you just knew how much I care for you, You would look at me in that way you used to. When you look at me in that way, I am on top of the world. I know you know that, That you made me happy. I wish that you would see that, I actually care what happens to you. Your heart is what comforts me, When I am down. Your love is what keeps me warm, In the cold wintry weather. I just wish you would hold me again, To keep me warm so I am not so cold. I know you see the pain, I am in. You still see the love in my eyes, And it still keeps you warm. I still look you in the eyes, I know you see my love. I know you miss the way: I looked at you, In that special way. I know you miss the way: I held you in my arms, With pure love in my heart. Written December 16th, 2001 © on Dec 16 2001 11:52 AM PST   18 • 0 • 8