Hello Doc; We Meet Once Again

I was hurt pretty bad six years ago. It took three years for a doctor to find out what "might" be wrong. He found three compressed discs, so he started spinal injections. They do help for about three weeks, then the sharp hot needle pains down my legs start all over again. If I’m lucky it just feels like someone pinching the living daylights out of me. My legs go numb after forty-fives of sitting, i ca't life over ten to fifteen pounds for the rest of my life. The one thing I still do have is the love of my friends, and family. Since I will not be able to pursue my career I chose, I had to go another direction. Instead of my body to get me through the rest of my life, I still have my mind, so I have new career; a student at ACC. There I have been able to open new doors, and found that strangers can be so kind, and they don't care about my physical ability, they admire and respect me for my mind. Anyone going through this situation my heart goes out to you, for when you describe the pain that a compressed discs cause, I can honestly say, I know what your pain is like. God Bless You hello doc, here I am once again I really admire your mind so sad we have to meet this way but here we are again once again I’m in your hands a needle in my arm pumping fluid into my body air going up my nose really bugging me I’m half naked; freezing with no one desiring me only nurses admiring me for the bravery they believe I have on a table where many others have lain some others worse off than I’ll ever be sorry for myself sometimes I feel till I think somewhere, somebody would be glad to trade places where they wouldn’t be where they are now I hear voices so distantly I feel cold fluids flowing making me so sleepy so I won’t feel, nor remember the pain of needles to make  pain I’m in go away Will I dream when I’m asleep I do when I sleep naturally it’s been said you’re so close to death; for your sleeping so unnaturally here I am once again in your hands trusting you do the right thing when I wake I’ll have six little needle eyes I didn’t have before to make the pain go away for a little while, till we meet once again for your hands to try one more time to make the pain go away. Written January 15th, 2002 © on Jan 15 2002 02:02 PM PST   0 • 10