crying

crying lips flailing arms masses of flesh burning and oozing i start to run but then i get caught i stood outside and started to cry my intentions i am too sure of i just wanna die i am so scared right now im calling my god from above that is not helping me that tells me to do this he tells me he wants me in the heavens well maybe i should? it would be so easy to just die it would be so easy just to end my life so easy to lie so easy to die so easy to tell everyone that im ending so easy to cry i cant tell you i hate you cuz that would be a lie and boy would i cry i wont tell you im over you cuz im so not i loved you so much you made my life so liveable i did not look at another guy i couldnt love anyone else i cant tell you i hate you i love you so much i need you to be here to make my life the way it was you make me feel like a nut because you handle this so well i told you about my whole life i wanted you to see that it is not easy for anyone i wanted to change i loved you so much you made me so crazy you said "i love you" how can such words come out of your mouth if you didnt mean it? you made me cry so much but wait maybe you did love me and then the spark left. you made me cry so much though now you will see me in a wooden casket if you even go to my funeral that nursery rhyme a tisket a tasket another broken basket well you my basket and now its over i love you with all my heart so now im going before i see any more pain before i love some one else you will be the only love the only person in my life that ever made an impact on me. you made things so fucking easy i still want you to be my guy and love not again i cant measure my love for you there is nothing to compare it to if i could get out of here to be near you i would in a second my life is going to end sooner than i wanted but maybe its best ************* to that person i will always love you************************* for some strange reason ****** Written July 8th, 2001 © on Jul 08 2001 03:06 PM PST   0 • 1