everyday...............
By sheshe143
everyday I imagine how it would beif you hadn't of let me losemy trust for youit seems that it would be so perfectevery time I look back on the painthat wuz once caused, it makesme feel like nothingI feel as if I had been abusedinside and outI try very hard to gain your trust backbut there is still a lot of paranoiaI am still afraidthat just one day you will do the samenot give a damnand leave me on the sideI know you feel my painyou should be able to see the emptiness in my eyesI want you to believe what you tell mebut it seems very hardI want to be able to trust youwithout any liesyou tell me people learn from their mistakesand people changeI don't believe that people change.....but that is just me..why do I live in constant fear everyday?why does it have to be this way........I am so scaredscared of many thingsit tore me up inside with the painthat wuz brought to me.....but for some reasonthe pain seems as though it won't go awayI want it to fade out of my thoughts....and disappear from my mind....I cry in regards from the pastthe inner pain haunts me in my sleep....it takes over my dreams....I try to hide the pain...but it is still there-deep inside--staring at methis is what's tearing me up inside....I wish for it to go away.....give me space to think on my ownplease make it go away.............Copyright © sheshe143 Written August 2nd, 2001 © on Aug 01 2001 04:52 PM PST 0 • 8
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"everyday I imagine how it would beif you hadn't of let me losemy trust for youit seems that it would be so perfectevery time I look back on the painthat wuz once caused, it makesme feel like nothingI feel as if I had been abusedinside and outI try very hard to gain your trust backbut there is still a lot of paranoiaI am still afraidthat just one day you will do the samenot give a damnand leave me on the sideI know you feel my painyou should be able to see the emptiness in my eyesI want you to believe what you tell mebut it seems very hardI want to be able to trust youwithout any liesyou tell me people learn from their mistakesand people changeI don't believe that people change.....but that is just me..why do I live in constant fear everyday?why does it have to be this way........I am so scaredscared of many thingsit tore me up inside with the painthat wuz brought to me.....but for some reasonthe pain seems as though it won't go awayI want it to fade out of my thoughts....and disappear from my mind....I cry in regards from the pastthe inner pain haunts me in my sleep....it takes over my dreams....I try to hide the pain...but it is still there-deep inside--staring at methis is what's tearing me up inside....I wish for it to go away.....give me space to think on my ownplease make it go away.............Copyright © sheshe143..."