Loving You Still.......

i need to take this time and figure out what i really want i know i don't want to be lied to again, i know that i don't want to endure anymore pain i want to believe you, i do believe i want to trust you, i do trust you but with all of this shit its really hard to believe what anyone says there's so much drama and so many tears i don't want to cry anymore i don't want to be in fear i don't want to ever have any doubts i don't want this to be just a game i have always loved you and i have always been true, i know you have always loved me but i want you to be true don't ever lie to me, don't be fake you have no idea how i feel i have all this shit inside of me it gets so hard sometimes to the point where i don't even know what to do i was constantly hiding hiding from the pain i felt inside hiding just made it worse, and i am still hurting til this day and this pain will be inside of me til the day i die... but you see, i need to try to block it out i need to move on with my life this pain is holding me prisoner i need to find a way to escape everything just seems so hard though love is so hard i want to know all of the answers but i know i never will i will always be left wondering but while this time passes i will love you still Written December 17th, 2001 © on Dec 17 2001 08:41 AM PST   18 • 0 • 8