rant

look now turn your face this is me should i erase what is this truth is forever i dont feel like im sinking i started out already under no that is a lie i was once a child child innocent free this world life took its toll on me what am i failure who am i nothing......why the hell gotta be like this i hate it i cant do anything right im sick of it i hate this face on me i see beauty in you and i love it but i hate myself im so ugly i am a failure i dont want to fail you you tell me i dont but i dont believe it...you tell me i dont dissapoint you but i cant believe it my parents tried so hard they tried to raise me right...i failed them i hate myself all the pain i caused them i hate myself i just wanna be a good person im so sorry mama i love you so much....can you see me now mama tell me do i make you proud all i wanna do is make you proud it seems that everything i did everything i felt was wrong and not acceptable...but you loved me mama i will always love you no matter how this life turns out and all i ever wanna do is for you to be proud of me....mama i need you to hold me i wish you were here to tell me its ok everything will be fine...your such a beautiful person im so ugly im so sorry Written January 15th, 2002 © on Jan 15 2002 09:01 AM PST   0 • 18 • 10