what am i?

"shut up you cunt you think youre fuckin tough? you think you can destroy me inside every single day you try and i know that i will cry when i see your blood color the water in the bathtub and i lie be..."

"What do you see when you look at me? I love you I loved you do you love me? You can save me you make me feel alive You can you did will you leave me you left me alone again I slip back in my pain my h..."

"The porno feeds the lips of what are meant to be the son why i cry is unknown Sweet Lady grip the gun this naked sort of life i hold is never even food enough for the one true held to hold me up what'..."

"so this is now! this is how you come around trying to pretend that you care! I've already been there! I'VE ALREADY BEEN THERE!! What?! WHAT!! You expect me to take this shit forever? You fucking bitch..."

"My pain can't be held inside any longer. I can't lift my head how can I conquer? My heart is still beating but I'm not alive.   Soul barren and empty, how can I survive?   No will to live, don't wan..."

"all this shit i wish i could show you all i really want is to hold you all i really want is to know you and have you stay i wish i could retract the words i say i wish i that i could go back to the ..."