Why can't I have what the hell I want

"Last Night, I waited by the phone, I waited for your call. I sat beside the window, I looked beyond the glass I watched the sun descend I feel the hours pass Last Night, I needed to hear you, I wante..."

"Long ago, I can't really say when I found myself in love again. I kept telling myself to slow down but yet it happened and I don't know how I went back and forth trying to figure if you were the one ..."

"At night aloneI shed tears.Tears that stem fromconfusionheartbreak and painI never knew where they came fromor even if I was heardbut I shed tearsI asked the question'Why Me?' and every thinkable one ..."

"This is my revelation my quest for truth something deep in me that wonders when I look at you My revelation for truth comes stemmed by my pride my preference and even my choice to believe "the lies"..."

"I purse to make you happy so I challenge and change myself I purse to be what you want From the depths within one, I will never understand why I conform to your interest your desires After all these y..."

"Leave me the fuck alone!don't calldon't writeI don't want anything to do with you!You deceive meand I fell into youonly to realize that there was something elsethat I was attracted toNow I don't know ..."