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I can't take it anymore! My life is pure hell. Everyone talks about how much they love me, how much they care. But it is all just lies. Nobody cares. I am utterly alone now, with my thoughts. The thoughts in my mind are horrible to any degree. 'You are worthless' they say. 'Why do you even continue to live, noone loves you, you are just a thorn in everyones side.' So I go to the kitchen to grab a knife. I raise the knife to my heart as my little sister comes in. She says,' Natalie, what are you doing?' I say nothing to her, but I start to cry. I fall on the floor, dropping the knife. She picks up the knife and looks at it. 'Natalie, why did you have a knife?' I say 'No reason at all sweetie.' She lays the knife on the counter and walks over to me. She smiles sweetly like she always does to me. I look up at her, my little sister, how I envy her, so innocent, so free. I hope she doesn't end up like me. I look away but something brings me back. I look up at her again and realize she is still looking straight at me. 'Stop looking at me,' I say. To this she answers words that will stay in my mind forever, 'I can't help it, your just so perfect. Everyone loves you. I want to be exactly like you.' A smile spreads across my face and I stand up and give her the biggest hug in my life. 'I love you' I say,'always remember that.' I put the knife away, and walk into the living room. I am happy now. I push away all the terrible thoughts and I can tell that my life has just began.Please give me comments, good or bad. Anything will be useful. Thank you.Natalie Written December 2nd, 2001 © on Dec 02 2001 08:35 AM PST, Natalie Schleper 0 • 1
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"I can't take it anymore! My life is pure hell. Everyone talks about how much they love me, how much they care. But it is all just lies. Nobody cares. I am utterly alone now, with my thoughts. The thoughts in my mind are horrible to any degree. 'You are worthless' they say. 'Why do you even continue to live, noone loves you, you are just a thorn in everyones side.' So I go to the kitchen to grab a knife. I raise the knife to my heart as my little sister comes in. She says,' Natalie, what are you doing?' I say nothing to her, but I start to cry. I fall on the floor, dropping the knife. She picks up the knife and looks at it. 'Natalie, why did you have a knife?' I say 'No reason at all sweetie.' She lays the knife on the counter and walks over to me. She smiles sweetly like she always does to me. I look up at her, my little sister, how I envy her, so innocent, so free. I hope she doesn't end up like me. I look away but something brings me back. I look up at her again and realize she is still looking straight at me. 'Stop looking at me,' I say. To this she answers words that will stay in my mind forever, 'I can't help it, your just so perfect. Everyone loves you. I want to be exactly like you.' A smile spreads across my face and I stand up and give her the biggest hug in my life. 'I love you' I say,'always remember that.' I put the knife away, and walk into the living room. I am happy now. I push away all the terrible thoughts and I can tell that my life has just began.Please give me comments, good or bad. Anything will be useful. Thank you.Natalie..."