Angels

I wish my fist was strong enough to break through this ugly wall of silence But I choke on every word to speak to your shining skin in the light And maybe I think I know how to commit myself to anything I choose But I don’t know how to talk to angels, but I guess I’ll have to learn I’ve wasted so much ticking time on the clock trying to change for you Everything I used to love is open wide and staring at the ground I’ve buried myself in the sands of time and the dirt of denial Living to love but hating to live never worked for me in my life I want to find a detour and deviate from this angry path I’ve chosen It was impossible to beat into my mind that you loved me for who I am I wish my worth was high enough to make you look upon me with envy And when the sky turns black I’ll turn around and be forced to wave goodbye And maybe as I walk away I’ll think about what I threw away again And how no one but you could take me high enough to talk to angels Is there some sort of complicated lesson here that I can’t decipher? When you grow your wings in full bloom and your burden becomes your gift I will be ready to emerge from the shell I’ve kept myself in these years I’ll be so sick of being walked on that I’ll be grateful for a savior I would get on my knees and thank whatever power gave me one so beautiful You dig your claws into me and I feel that old pain that I loved so much Looking at an invisible angel is hardly above being alone so I’ll follow you I’m alive and I’m not turning my back anymore, I’ll wait forever if I have to If you see fit I’ll peel my skin to my bones and show you the truth inside I’ve concealed my faith for way too long I will not rest until I break this It’s not enough to be in the company of angels, I wish to fly with them Everything and everyone dies, not even love is immortal, stop believing in me Written January 24th, 2002 © on Jan 24 2002 12:52 PM PST, daniel (6) joseph (6) scarpa (6)   18 • 0 • 10