The Turtle's Back Again

I'm tired of playing the game this way. I'm tired of waiting day to day. I've grown weary of the suspense I'm in. I feel myself getting cold again. That's not the way it's supposed to be. That's not what I need to be set free. That's not what I've been shown to do. That's not what's best for me or you. I don't want to risk or try any more. I don't want to open another door. I don't want to hope for someone new. I don't want to look for another you. So... Don't come back, if you don't want to stay. Don't give me a call if you've nothing to say. Don't re-enter my life, then vanish again. A friend doesn't do that to a  friend. Don't confuse me anew, nor string me along. I don't want you to prove that I've been wrong. Let me forget the plans we made. Let your memories begin to fade. Just leave me alone and let me heal. Stay away and don't make me feel. Let me forget the love I shared. Let me forget you ever cared. You go your way and I'll go mine. I'll get along...I'll be just fine. If you pick me up just to drop me, I'll break... I've had all the taking I can take. I've never issued an ultimatum before - One that would open or shut a door. I guess I'm frightened by what you'll decide, But the "original Turtle" wants to hide.                             mDecember 1987 And I still know about hiding. m Written November 16th, 2001 © on Nov 16 2001 01:23 PM PST   18 • 0 • 8