You Hate Me/ So Leave Me

You had me yet you hate me You're preciousl little boy dropped out of highschool Yet you love him above all else You praise him and you don't care what he does But things are diffrent for me Appearently I'm an enormous dissapointment With everything I've done You don't care; and complain about how I'm a mother's worse nightmare You bitch about your husband's race and how it differs from yours You blame me for being the result of the man you married You relate me to everything evil when I'm trying to love you You say repetivly how you wish you'd ever begun to enduce my waistful presence Well fuck mom!! Why the hell did you have sex with a man you hate Why the hell don't you abort me before my existance shadowed any others Why don't you just give me up for adoption so I'd nevr know your face Why do you put all the blame in me Can't you be your scapegoat You know, it's funny that you ask what I will ever amount to be Because I'll be more than you ever were or ever will be You know why Because I'm not mking excuses I'm not hiding behind false sussesses And I'm not denying everything realistic, just to suit my own ego BITCH!! Why the hell can't I speak with you calmly for once Even when I try to get advice from, you end up yelling at an have no idea what I said I'm stuborn? Have you ever listened to yourself Or is that another one of this qualities you hate because of me Can't you pick on anyone else Isn't ther another why to relieve yourself If you hate me so much mother then why can't you just leave me hear as I cry Instead of mockig me until I die Written April 16th, 2002 © on Apr 15 2002 10:41 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1