the dream

i'm standing here alone until i start to spin i'm standing here with wolves at my feet and eagles circling my head liberty above inertia below i'll start my journy i'll go slow as i spin some more i begin to float upwards i go leaving the beasts to fade i am out of sight spinning until i stop high above floating in nothingness i feel there is a battle raging on flashes of light bouncing around me sounds of thunderous booms it all goes black everything slows everything quiets it is now silent i spin and spiral down i reach the river i am in front of the horizonnow i stand still as the sun rises in front of me the sun spins away the moon appears and spins away venus is now it spins away mars i now see and spins away mercury takes place and spins and gone saturn spins jupiter appears spins and fades it draws dark i spin now standing in the light i see an angel appear i follow the angel it is bright i'm now within the light as i follow i enter a dreamy world of aspirations i continue to follow and enter an area of destruction passing through now into love and it's beauty around me then i emerge into progression and as i follow i feel power and then i enter the wilderness i spin again with the angel as my guide i am an infant i spin more and am a child i spin into a youth then to man i continue spinning now i am mature and spinning some more i am now old aged i' am now here nor there i begin to cry tears fall i spin downward and am lying down this rain of mine falls my eyes open i see a rainbow planets and stars i spiral through the rainbow universe i try to speak  i can't i start to crawl towards the rainbow universe the rainbow universe expands i continue towards it but no use i can't reach it fading away i feel squeezing sensation i'm being constricted a snake has coiled around me my body restricted i see hope and faith and love in the distance still fading into me is squeezed fear and dought and despair into my soul thoughts am i changing or dyeing am i transforming or being destroyed my eyes close and then finnally open i see a caterpiller crysalisis a butterfly now flies away i breath a deep breathe i am free mind body soul i am free i spin away i am now at two paths a wide road clear and easy a narrow road difficult to move through a crossroads in my journey i am floating here what am i waiting for take a road and follow it but i can't move around me only blackness a struggle emerges the wind blows a fire begins to blaze tidal waves rush in and trees timber it is all madd the elements are in battle within me i feel the power wisdom intelligence mercy of all things real and unreal severity beauty victory eternity where are thee the foundation the kingdom i shall find my way the battle fades as i rise above i now KNOW which way i DARE myself i WILL follow a path but only in SILENCE as i float though mirrors of mine own image all different faces spinning and morphing reason truth justice will survive i am now naked heading toward the path i feel strong as i head toward the narrow difficult road i am feeling scared i am feeling nervous the unknown surrounds me but i continue there are many obstacles it grows dark but i feel the rainbow universe is this way at the end of the dark path i see a glimmer as i travel down the path it becomes rough but love is in my soul there is a lightforce and i hide myself in the bosom of the eternal mother i follow the guiding star of love i relax and breathe easily the truth is upon me grace comforts my resting soul and obliterates all evil until there is nothing but perfection nirvana paradise heaven or hell ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? Written December 11th, 2001 © on Dec 11 2001 06:46 AM PST   10 • 0 • 13