Yet I Can Do Nothing

Someone steps in my circle, yet I can do nothing Someone moves in on my territory, yet I can do nothing Somone threatens my world, yet I can do nothing Someone tries to take that which I hold dear, yet I can do nothing I have too much hate to smile I have too anger I cannot grin A blank stare wipes across my faces like a wave. I have so many emotions I want to cry in fear. I want to cry in anger I want to cry Surronded by faces, so many idle faces, poking, proding, questioning faces and I want to cry, but I can't Society won't let me cry The faces won't let me cry I won't let me cry I feel I'm going to be alone again Yet I can do nothing And I am afraid It's the tiniest tings that make me worry, it's the tiniest things that make me afraid I don't want to be abused anymore I don't want to be hit anymore I don't want to share that which I feel is mine I don't want to share what I love I don't want to end anything I don't want to share I don't want to share I don't want to share I don't want to share I want everyone to stay away and outof my life Only one shall enter my mind Only one shall be permitted to gaze apoon the depths of my soul Only one is what I care about and witout it I'm afraid I'll slip back into time Back to a time I've tried to forget for so long Back to a time when I abused myself Back to a time when I cared about nothing Back to a time when I lived in fear of nothing, yet I was still afraid My problem is I have too many emoitions My problem is I care entirely to much My problem is I'm afriad My problem is I'm paranoid My problem is I have to many problems My problem is I'm starting to not care anymore I want to pull away but I'm afraid I'll never get back Why am I so afriad? Whats wrong with me? Why do I care so much? I want to cry in so many ways Yet I can do nothing Written November 20th, 2001 © on Nov 20 2001 12:33 PM PST   0 • 10 • 1