The Half Of Life Gone.

The days have slain the days,     and the seasons have gone by     And brought me the summer again;     and here on the grass I lie     As erst I lay and was glad     ere I meddled with right and with wrong.     Wide lies the mead as of old,     and the river is creeping along     By the side of the elm-clad bank     that turns its weedy stream;     And grey o'er its hither lip     the quivering rushes gleam.     There is work in the mead as of old;     they are eager at winning the hay,     While every sun sets bright     and begets a fairer day.     The forks shine white in the sun     round the yellow red-wheeled wain,     Where the mountain of hay grows fast;     and now from out of the lane     Comes the ox-team drawing another,     comes the bailiff and the beer,     And thump, thump, goes the farmer's nag     o'er the narrow bridge of the weir.     High up and light are the clouds,     and though the swallows flit     So high o'er the sunlit earth,     they are well a part of it,     And so, though high over them,     are the wings of the wandering herne;     In measureless depths above him     doth the fair sky quiver and burn;     The dear sun, floods the land     as the morning falls toward noon,     And a little wind is awake     in the best of the latter June.     They are busy winning the hay,     and the life and the picture they make,     If I were as once I was,     I should deem it made for my sake;     For here if one need not work     is a place for happy rest,     While one's thought wends over the world     north, south, and east and west.     * * * * *     There are the men and the maids,     and the wives and the gaffers grey     Of the fields I know so well,     and but little changed are they     Since I was a lad amongst them;     and yet how great is the change!     Strange are they grown unto me;     yea I to myself am strange.     Their talk and their laughter mingling     with the music of the meads     Has now no meaning to me     to help or to hinder my needs,     So far from them have I drifted.     And yet amidst of them goes     A part of myself, my boy,     and of pleasure and pain he knows,     And deems it something strange,     when he is other than glad.     Lo now! the woman that stoops     and kisses the face of the lad,     And puts a rake in his hand     and laughs in his laughing face.     Whose is the voice that laughs     in the old familiar place?     Whose should it be but my love's,     if my love were yet on the earth?     Could she refrain from the fields     where my joy and her joy had birth,     When I was there and her child,     on the grass that knew her feet     'Mid the flowers that led her on     when the summer eve was sweet?     * * * * *     No, no, it is she no longer;     never again can she come     And behold the hay-wains creeping     o'er the meadows of her home;     No more can she kiss her son     or put the rake in his hand     That she handled a while agone     in the midst of the haymaking band.     Her laughter is gone and her life;     there is no such thing on the earth,     No share for me then in the stir,     no share in the hurry and mirth.     Nay, let me look and believe     that all these will vanish away,     At least when the night has fallen,     and that she will be there 'mid the hay,     Happy and weary with work,     waiting and longing for love.     There will she be, as of old,     when the great moon hung above,     And lightless and dead was the village,     and nought but the weir was awake;     There will she rise to meet me,     and my hands will she hasten to take,     And thence shall we wander away,     and over the ancient bridge     By many a rose-hung hedgerow,     till we reach the sun-burnt ridge     And the great trench digged by the Romans:     there then awhile shall we stand,     To watch the dawn come creeping     o'er the fragrant lovely land,     Till all the world awaketh,     and draws us down, we twain,     To the deeds of the field and the fold     and the merry summer's gain.     Ah thus, only thus shall I see her,     in dreams of the day or the night,     When my soul is beguiled of its sorrow     to remember past delight.     She is gone.    She was and she is not;     there is no such thing on the earth     But e'en as a picture painted;     and for me there is void and dearth     That I cannot name or measure.     Yet for me and all these she died,     E'en as she lived for awhile,     that the better day might betide.     Therefore I live, and I shall live     till the last day's work shall fail.     Have patience now but a little     and I will tell you the tale     Of how and why she died,     and why I am weak and worn,     And have wandered away to the meadows     and the place where I was born;     But here and to-day I cannot;     for ever my thought will stray     To that hope fulfilled for a little     and the bliss of the earlier day.     Of the great world's hope and anguish     to-day I scarce can think;     Like a ghost, from the lives of the living     and their earthly deeds I shrink.     I will go adown by the water     and over the ancient bridge,     And wend in our footsteps of old     till I come to the sun-burnt ridge,     And the great trench digged by the Romans;     and thence awhile will I gaze,     And see three teeming counties     stretch out till they fade in the haze;     And in all the dwellings of man     that thence mine eyes shall see,     What man as hapless as I am     beneath the sun shall be?     O fool, what words are these?     Thou hast a sorrow to nurse,     And thou hast been bold and happy;     but these, if they utter a curse,     No sting it has and no meaning,     it is empty sound on the air.     Thy life is full of mourning,     and theirs so empty and bare,     That they have no words of complaining;     nor so happy have they been     That they may measure sorrow     or tell what grief may mean.     And thou, thou hast deeds to do,     and toil to meet thee soon;     Depart and ponder on these     through the sun-worn afternoon.