Christ

I saw myself, in dream, a youth, almost a boy, in a low-pitched wooden church. The slim wax candles gleamed, spots of red, before the old pictures of the saints.     A ring of coloured light encircled each tiny flame. Dark and dim it was in the church.... But there stood before me many people. All fair-haired, peasant heads. From time to time they began swaying, falling, rising again, like the ripe ears of wheat, when the wind of summer passes in slow undulation over them.     All at once some man came up from behind and stood beside me.     I did not turn towards him; but at once I felt that this man was Christ.     Emotion, curiosity, awe overmastered me suddenly. I made an effort ... and looked at my neighbour.     A face like every one's, a face like all men's faces. The eyes looked a little upwards, quietly and intently. The lips closed, but not compressed; the upper lip, as it were, resting on the lower; a small beard parted in two. The hands folded and still. And the clothes on him like every one's.     'What sort of Christ is this?' I thought. 'Such an ordinary, ordinary man! It can't be!'     I turned away. But I had hardly turned my eyes away from this ordinary man when I felt again that it really was none other than Christ standing beside me.     Again I made an effort over myself.... And again the same face, like all men's faces, the same everyday though unknown features.     And suddenly my heart sank, and I came to myself. Only then I realised that just such a face - a face like all men's faces - is the face of Christ.     Dec. 1878.