~1,000 Tears~ October 14, 2001

I want to know if you can hear me. Because at times you seem deaf. Is it that the love you once had for me is Gone, or you just don’t care as much. I have been here for you a 100\% I always gave you my all. I always gave you my all. You’re the only one for me. I realize it now, but I hope it’s not to late, To late I will cry a thousand tears until the day You come back to me. No one in this world means Anything to me besides you. You’re the oxygen that keeps me going. You’re my mind that makes me stay on task. It feels like I am dying a 1,000 deaths. I believe I’m going crazy. I see your face in everything that I do. I only love you. Everyone makes mistakes. So why should I be punished. I miss you so much. I want to call but I’m afraid. I don’t know how your reaction would be. They’re right when they say “you don’t know what you got ‘til it’s gone”. It’s sad that I had to realize it this way. This way all I feel is pain. Everything that I think about has you in it. You’re the perfect man in my eyes, even though really no one is perfect. I cry a thousand tears because you are not hear To take away my fears and dry away my tears. I cry not knowing the outcome of our situation. The situation that we’re facing might be crucial, If not to you but to me. I am strong, but not that strong when It comes to you. You are my weakness. I will do anything for you. I would rather die a horrible death than to see you with someone else. I’m not ready for anything like that. Expressing my feeling to you on a piece Of paper is how I get through the day. I love you. Plain and simple. In my eyes we belong together. I read each and every letter that you have ever written me. You are the light that brightens my day. I wouldn’t have it any other way. If I did that would be crazy. I can’t let you Just walk out of my life like I never cared about you. I would be lying to myself if I said something like that. All I have is our memories and pictures. I get teary eyed Because I remember each moment that we had together. Together was the best time of my life. Of my life I need you in it, to help my fulfill my every need. All I want is to be your arms where you always held me. I won’t go to anyone but you. Anyone but you because you are where my love is at. You have my heart That no one else can get to. You have that certain key that unlocks every Door in my body. My body misses you, and will continue on missing you until The day you come back to me. Until that day I will cry a 1,000 tears Written October 14th, 2001 © on Oct 14 2001 03:25 PM PST   18 • 0 • 1