Sleepless Nights

I can’t breathe. I wake up in cold sweats.Are you lying next to me?No! Where are you? I remember how we were once together.Our love was so forever. I can’t sleep. I try to go back to sleepBut it doesn’t work. You are always on my mind. Will you tuck me in?Make me realize that my life is not over without you in it.Every night is a sleepless one. It is so complicated.  I love you so much.I have dreams about you, but they are always broken up. I picture so many things. I wish you were here to lie next to me so I can sleep better.Once again I can’t breathe, I gasp for air, I begin to scream but no one hears me. Why is that? Why doesn’t anyone here me? Is it me? Is it my fault that I can’t sleep, and I have many sleepless nights.I close my eyes for a brief moment trying to understand that you will not come back to me. I’m sorry. I am so sorry for everything. You are the love of my life. Everything that I am saying probably doesn’t mean anything to you. I can understand why. To be honest, I don’t deserve you. You deserve someone better than me. But I want you here with me. I have so many sleepless nights since you walked out if my life. I am just not the same. I don’t smile a much. I don’t really do anything but mope around. Please hear me out. That’s all I’m asking, because if you don’t I will continue on having sleepless nights. Written October 14th, 2001 © on Oct 14 2001 03:10 PM PST   0 • 1