Finally

I should have known what i was getting into, that you were leaving me forever, but it was just far too much pain for my small heart to endevor, so i let you use me, as long as you promised to stay, my opinion didn't matter to you, fuck what i had to say, you said that you know everything, i disagreed but did not dare to speak, and slowly but surely you brought me down, and now i've turned out weak, i couldn't get dressed in the morning without you picking out my clothes, i couldn't take a picture without you there to tell me how to pose, i couldn't spend my money, you always did it for me, and still i was trapped within me heart, even when i was free, and i just cant understand what it is with you, making me feel like less then shit is all that you can do, i work my ass off for you, in hopes you'll love me back, but deep inside i already know, that your heart is hard and black, so tell me now that you don't need me, to do your every will, you don't need the reassurance that for you i would kill, you don't need somebody to care, say you're tougher then i think, but for once i figured you out, i know you're on he brink, so don't lie to me and hurt me, you're only hurting youself, because when i finally leave you, you won't have anyone else. Written February 20th, 2002 © on Feb 20 2002 12:04 PM PST   0 • 10