Notch on Someone Else's belt

In my mind I think I need him. In my heart I know I don't. In my mind you think I'll want him. But my heart knows I won't. My friends say, 'He's so cute. So, of course I should say yes!' And my mind goes mute. So, I bite my lip and hope for the best. He puts his arm around me, And calls me his girl But, when I think 'Is this true?' My mind starts to twirl. I wonder why you agreed to- Not the right reasons at all. I know he's not what I want, but need, And myr feelings for him start to fall. Because I never really loved him. I said yes to keep with the crowd. And I know you have to tell him My feelings somehow. I tell him its over. He deserves someone true. I tell him his love Can no longer be with you. He moves on And so do I. A new love starts to dawn. And he finds someone new. Then, I find a new interest Who seems interested in me. I hope for the best- That he will be true. Things go fine for a little while. Or, so I think. Then you see it in his smile. Things are starting not to link. He tells me he knows How strongly you felt But, he needed a relationship Under his belt So he could 'Keep with the crowd' And I know he never loved you Even though I loved him so And I know what you must do- To whom I must go. Sooo....... I tell him I am sorry. I know just how he felt. I tell him not to worry. I know what its like to be A Notch on someone elses belt. So, when my heart told me I didnt need him, I should have listened well, Because being someones practice Can be a living hell. Written September 28th, 1999 © on Oct 05 2001 12:00 PM PST   18 • 0 • 8