My Foresight

You I must know, I meet you in my dreams     but I can't see you I can't hear your voice I've counted your flaws I lay out your mistakes Why? Why can't I see you Why can't I touch you You are a phantom ghost You claim not to exist But only I know better When you appear you move like a rustling wind You're only a blur Words flow from your mouth like a fount you speak It irritates me I stand before you Right here in front of you I know you are there I can feel your warmth I can feel your breath It brushes aross my face But your words not even a syllable penetrates my mind Be still so I can feel you Let me caress your cheek Be with me and do not hide your face Acknowledge my every movement for I am here waiting for you I want your wounds and I ask for your woes Be with me Lay beside me and embrace me for I am lonely and I pray for your company You peer through me as though I were invisible I am right here! waiting Search for me the way I search for you As you wander at night I watch you I am forced to observe you live Through my mind you traipse I cry out in agony You sense me I see you searching I am here! Find me Can you hear me pounding my fists in this despair I see that we will hate each other so much that when we kiss a longing lingers It will tear us apart You annoy me You infuriate me with the way you speak It builds up in me like an excruciating knot a choking blob of torment You elaborate on all topics I love being in the presents of your intellect But you intimidate me and my own knowledge We argue over all existence over all our differences and beliefs This will be a constant war The love will bring us even more pain then the hatred we share My arrogance will bring me to weep with out cause For I will not apologize And that fair-well plea with my lips on your soft skin will torchor me I am dying slowly because this foresight to our future only makes me love you more and this shallow heart will rot away Please I can't bear to prolong my death So kill me softly but do it with a swift hand For my pain will endure forever But come soon My Love and relieve me of these pressurous tears Allow the tears to cascade down and flow like a river I am here! I am right here! Still breathing...I wrote this a year and a half ago after having this dream. This is my dream of love and war. I believe this it the way it should be, the way I want it to be. I even debated with myself on weither or not to put this up here, but I thought this might help you see the me I have come to be. Roury Written December 28th, 2001 © on Dec 28 2001 11:41 AM PST   18 • 0 • 8